craving: Vacation - a proper one
If I had a dirham for every time someone would ask me if I will ever blog again, then I would have been a millionaire by now!
So I’ve been up to so much that I am not sure where I have left off, or where should I even start. My blogging was always like a run-down engine; it would take forever to start, then once it does, it suddenly stops for a long time again! lol Is there a doctor in the house?
Lately I’ve been feeling ‘trapped’ with work. I can’t escape it, nor can I bear working any minute longer. I think it’s because its been such a long time since I took a proper break. Work keeps piling on my plate by the day, resources seem to be either disappearing or not being able to handle the pressure, and the thought of taking off any time soon or even anytime this year is like finding a unicorn – hence the feeling of being trapped. *sad music*
An ex-workaholic friend of mine recently quit her job out of the blue. I was so shocked because out of everyone I knew, not only was work running in her veins & always came first, but she was EXTREMELY passionate about it. She now feels ‘liberated’ & happier than ever. She feels light & worry-free. I envied that (not in an evil-eye-kind of way), but to me she was totally brave to make that move & have no regrets. She took the ‘plunge’ & now is flying like a free bird.
Another friend of mine did the same. At the height of his career, he just quit. No negativity, no specific reason at all, he just felt satisfied & left to start a new beginning. Not a new job, but a new chapter in his life where he wants to take his time deciding what to do next. Again, he felt liberated. I envied him too.
I want to feel liberated too.
Don’t get me wrong, I do not want to flush down my blessings & quit my job. Especially when I am so lucky to be where I am & others do not even have the privilege of a decent job. I want to give back. I want to empower. I want to change the world. Yet, I can’t help not feeling human about this. I am going too fast, too soon, too hard & no chance to breathe.
My batteries are running low. I need to recharge.
I want my happy-go-lucky self back.
Please let this phase pass by faster, because its taking longer than usual.
Until next time..